Friday, 26 February 2021

an apology from FSLT HQ & I'm welcome at Glenrothes pool 🏊‍♀️

 I received a letter by Email from Fife Sports & Leisure Trust on 19 February which contained an apology:

"I am sorry to hear that on your visit to Michael Woods Sports and Leisure Centre on 20th November 2020, that staff were not within the wet changing area to advise you of the protocols and direct you towards the swimming pool. The issue that you have brought to light will be investigated and any required actions undertaken as per Fife Sports and Leisure Trust's disciplinary process."

and which confirmed that I am not banned from using the Michael Woods Sports and Leisure Centre, Glenrothes.

20Nov20 Glenrothes Pool


Tuesday, 23 February 2021

mental health in Fife locked down? when will it ever end ...

I don't know, is the answer.  To when it will end for me.

I've been looking for a move out of Fife since 2012 after the human rights abuse of the locked seclusion room in Stratheden Hospital, by Cupar. I tried everything in the early days - Dundee City Council housing list, an exchange, asked family for help with buying a house and we could pay the mortgage - but nothing transpired and I got financially poorer, now on a basic State Pension.  Plus I was busy raising complaints about NHS Fife, Fife Council Social Work Services and Fife Police, then with the Ombudsman which resulted in an apology from the Fife Health Board for "unreasonable treatment" of my son, in September 2014.

We were abandoned by mental health services in Fife after I started raising complaints in February 2012, even although I completed a Carer Assessment form with MHOs from Fife Council Social Work.  And I later found out, in the August 2012, that an Adult Protection Investigation resulting from my complaints, tried to find evidence that I was to blame for psychiatric abuse.  They asked a psychiatrist and a CPN/community psychiatric nurse about my character.

And Greg Flucker Broadcast Journalist mentioned in his Email to me "what an end to lockdown could mean for boosting people's wellbeing?".  For me, getting out of Fife, with my son, to Dundee, in a comparable house to the one we are living in - own front and back doors, own garden - would be like freedom after restraint.  It would mean new beginnings, a better life, access to facilities in the city, to libraries, museums, a range of supermarkets, shops, swimming pools, gyms, the potential to do further study, to look for a craft studio or workshop with my son.    

I'm looking forward to a creatively crafty future getting more into knitting, sewing, making stuff, to writing short stories, books, on a range of topics, self published, including science fiction like my Dad Willie Patterson, scriptwriter for the Daily Express in the 1960's, the adult comic strip Jeff Hawke:

The Ambassadors on Amazon

I'm dependent on the State and can't afford to buy a house in Dundee even although NHS Fife got £4.4m from Scottish Government after I whistleblowed about the locked seclusion room abuses.  It didn't benefit me to speak out.  And these days I hear very little about Fife mental health services so I'm thinking that it must be safer for others not to say anything than risk retaliation for giving negative feedback.  

I read often in The Courier about issues in Carseview Centre, Dundee, and in Murray Royal Hospital, Perth, but I hear nothing about psychiatric hospitals in Fife.  No news is good news?  I don't think so.  It can only be a good thing to hear a range of feedback about mental health services but that's not happening in Fife, and I've retreated from frontline MH activism and campaigning.  I've done my bit to improve things here and just want a move to Dundee.


Sunday, 21 February 2021

Monday, 15 February 2021

Scottish Church leaders call for greater Freedom of Expression protections; Hate Crime Bill

'Church Leaders Urge Withdrawal of Controversial Section of Hate Crime Bill to Allow “Adequate Consideration”: Free Church of Scotland, 12 February 2021

"An unprecedented alliance of Roman Catholic and Evangelical church leaders are urging the Scottish Government to drop part of its proposed Hate Crime and Public Order (Scotland) Bill to allow time for “detailed consideration of crucial provisions.” The Bill, which would potentially criminalise any criticism of some ideologies has been criticised by the Catholic Church, the Free Church of Scotland and the Evangelical Alliance. 

In a letter addressed today (Friday 12 February) to the Cabinet Secretary for Justice Humza Yousaf, the church leaders call for greater protections for freedom of expression and say: 

“We believe that people should be completely free to disagree with our faith in any way, including mocking and ridiculing us. We are convinced that our faith is true and has a sufficient evidential basis to withstand any criticism, we therefore welcome open debate.” 

By contrast, concerns are raised that any disagreement with or criticism of certain beliefs and identities could fall foul of the new law, if passed in its current form.

The letter marks the first time Roman Catholic, Free Church and Evangelical Alliance leaders have jointly petitioned the Scottish Government and sought a meeting with the Cabinet Secretary for Justice.  

Supporting “open and honest debate” the letter ends with a warning:

“The Parliament now has approximately four weeks to complete the passage of the bill. This is extraordinarily tight and risks inadequate and ill-thought through legislation being passed. No workable solutions to issues of freedom of expression have so far been suggested. If no such solutions can be found we hope the Scottish Government will now consider withdrawing the stirring up hatred offences in Part 2 of the bill to allow more detailed consideration and discussion and to ensure freedom of expression provisions, which enshrine free and open debate, are afforded the scrutiny they require.”

The full text of the letter can be read here."



Friday, 12 February 2021

truth, secrets and lies

 A wee blog post about this topic, not going into much detail.

I'm glad to have recently found out a secret which had been hidden from me for over 6 years.  It was a shock to know that I wasn't in the loop and made sense of why at times it felt odd, incongruent and that something wasn't right.  They shouldn't have done it, kept it a secret.  That was a wrong decision.  For all sorts of reasons.  

11Nov14 photo taken in Waverley Station, Edinburgh

"O, what a tangled web we weave. When first we practise to deceive!" Sir Walter Scott, from Marmion: a Tale of Flodden Field


There was another secret which I didn't know about until 18mths later in the summer of 2011 which has links to the later secret and has its roots in psychiatric abuse, discrimination and ignorance.  It was a takeover of sorts and the perpetrators didn't understand the wider context, underestimating the skills, abilities and experience of their adversary.  

It caused a lot of damage and pain.  But that's the nature of psychiatry, retraumatising the traumatised.  New pain for old.  I've said it before and I say it again.  

I'm just glad that the truth is now out in the open.  I had to externalise my pain and hurt, have done that and feel the better of it, looking forward to a more positive future, the ending of lockdown, being creatively crafty, continuing to write, keeping fit, moving to the city of Dundee with my youngest son.

19Aug20 Hilltown, Dundee, with Daniel

1999 with my 3 sons

grandchildren when young

Tuesday, 9 February 2021

Half the City Live by St. Paul & The Broken Bones



Monday, 8 February 2021

focusing on the positive



Woke up thinking of recent and past events, and then singing this wee chorus I learnt after coming to a deeper faith in God and Christ in 1981 at my birthday time, September, 40 years ago, when reading the gospels in my council house upstairs bedroom at Rigside, Lanarkshire.

I've got a lot to be thankful for, not least that I'm in good physical and mental health after nearly a year of lockdowns and threats of coronavirus invasion.  On Saturday I received a letter from NHS Scotland offering a vaccine appointment in Cupar Corn Exchange to protect me from COVID-19, the first dose.  Hopefully my son Daniel will soon receive his letter too.

We are looking forward to a Dundee move in 2021, hoping for a council house similar to the one we have lived in for nearly 23 years at Springfield, Cupar, Fife.  I first put our names down in 2012 with Dundee City Council Housing, completing application forms accompanied by Doctor's letters but we were never offered anything and in 2016 I was dealing with health issues and forgot to renew the application. Since 2018 we have again been asking for help to move, appealing to politicians in Fife and Dundee, also looking at private rented but this came to nothing and wasn't a good idea, moving to less secure accommodation.

I'm glad to have a car now, funding by family in 2019 enabled me to buy a new Corsa, after 3yrs of taking buses into Dundee, my bladder prolapse worsening and then getting a pessary fitted, self managed, making exercise much easier.  After injuring my medial collateral ligament on left knee in May I've now lost weight, taking the stress off my legs, the titanium plate right fibula from March 2005 causing left side strains.  Physio phone call in August after Ninewells A&E diagnosis informed me that knee could take up to a year to heal.  This was useful information.

Buying a sewing machine from Hobbycraft online last year was a good move and enabled me to make many face coverings for us and family, here and in Louisiana.  Here are some photos of these, made mostly with cotton fat quarters or materials by the metre from Hobbycraft in Dundee:

December in The Range, Lochee, Dundee

December Exchange St, Dundee

Creative crafting is very therapeutic in my life experience and I also enjoy sock knitting these days, 4ply Drops Fabel wool and bootleg longer socks:

and on occasion making cushion covers:

New Year 2021 cushions 👇

using unfinished cross-stitch from around 20yrs ago ...