Monday, 12 April 2021

complaint @NHSFife #Covid19 vaccination centre Cupar Corn Exchange 15Feb21

Email complaint sent to Patient Relations, NHS Fife 12 April 2021:



"I am writing to complain about Sean Colgan, NHS Fife, who tried to prevent me getting the Covid19 Pfizer vaccine in the Corn Exchange, Cupar, Fife, on 15 February 2021 at 5.10pm.  He said to me that I wasn't getting the vaccine and told me to go away.

I didn't know who the young man was and why he was aggressive, in my face, he pushed a trolley in my way to block my entrance into the main hall where they were taking our appointment letters.  He was at the front door and told us all to go into the vestibule.  His badge had no name on it.  I only found out later who he was, seeing his photo on the frontpage of The Courier then his name in an inside page, beside another photo.  He did not ask us for our appointment letters, none of us, a group of about 8 of us from Tarvit Terrace, Springfield, I knew some of the folk there.  But Colgan wouldn't have known our names and I didn't know his.  So why did he behave in this way towards me? 

Is that Sean Colgan related to Sean and Katherine Colgan, nurses at Stratheden Hospital, Feb/Mar 2012?  Sean Colgan, Nursing Assistant in Lomond Ward, his wife a Staff Nurse in the IPCU/Ward 4, one of 5 Nurses who intimidated me, 4Feb12, when I tried to see my son's broken hand and bruising, lied to me, saying my son didn't want to see me.  Yes he did, however he was covered in urine, having been jagged twice with Midazolam and in a state of semi-consciousness.  I don't know if that young man, Sean Colgan, is related to this nursing couple who used to live at Cuparmuir.  Same name, might be coincidental.

See attached Courier article photos I took in Tesco Cupar later that evening, 15 February, when going in there for food shopping, article written by Michael Alexander who lives in Cupar, comes from St Andrews originally, so he told me.

I tried to raise a complaint after I got the vaccination, with Nurses in charge, but they wouldn't listen to me, kept saying that the young man with bun on head was a nice person.  They never said his name and I didn't know why he had tried to stop me getting the vaccine.  He threatened to call the police on me and I told him to do so, to phone 999, for my own safety and wellbeing.  For my protection.  For at the point I didn't know who he was and what he had against me.  I still don't know.

I was glad to see the Police who took my details in full view of a queue waiting to go in for the vaccine.  Colgan told people that I was the reason there was a delay.  That was a lie.  We were told on entering that there had been an IT glitch earlier that day, hence the delay.

Colgan was there again at the front door when my son Daniel got his Astra Zeneca vaccine on 19 March, very stressful for my son, he ended up in Ravenscraig Ward, Whyteman's Brae, NHS Fife, the next day.  He was fearful I think that Sean Colgan would try to stop him getting his vaccine.  My son Daniel is prone to lung collapse.  He was very anxious about not being vaccinated the same time as me.  That delay, plus the aggression I experienced from Sean Colgan NHS Fife, led to my son having another mental health crisisMy son is still in Ravenscraig Ward

I hold NHS Fife responsible for my son's breakdown.  I have supported my son singlehandedly since Nurses abused him, mentally, physically and sexually, in the locked seclusion room of Stratheden Hospital February 2012, winning Ombudsman case against NHS Fife and an official apology for their "unreasonable treatment" of my son.  I don't appreciate NHS Fife staff trying to prevent my son and I from being vaccinated against Covid19.  That was a serious failure of duty of care, again, by NHS Fife staff.

Chrys Muirhead (Mrs)"

[to Patient, copied to MSP, Wendy, Michael, jason, Nicola.Sturgeon.msp, Jeane.Freeman.msp, mwc.enquiries, editor, enquiries]


Link to Express article Sunday 5Oct14


Tuesday, 6 April 2021

concerns about Dr McQuitty, Ravenscraig Ward, Whytemans Brae Hospital, Kirkcaldy

Email sent to NHS Fife Patient Relations, copied in to my MSP Willie Rennie and MP Wendy Chamberlain:

Strapline: concerns about Dr McQuitty, Ravenscraig Ward, Whytemans Brae Hospital, Kirkcaldy


I am writing to raise concerns about my son's treatment in Ravencraig Ward, Whyteman's Brae, Kirkcaldy, in particular about his locum Consultant Psychiatrist Dr Luke McQuitty.

I am concerned that Dr McQuitty does not have the required experience to competently make judgements about my son Daniel's mental ill health and is suggesting he be discharged when my son isn't well enough.   Dr McQuitty should be discussing my son's discharge with me as I'm his Carer and my son lives in my house.  He should not be telling my son he can come home if I do not think my son is well enough to be home.  That is raising false expectations and causing discord between my son and I.  It's unprofessional and unhelpful.

My son has a bipolar disorder diagnosis as well as a lung condition which meant he was socially isolating for most of the lockdown year of the pandemic, and this resulted in his mental health deteriorating.  I did take him home from Ravenscraig Ward last week when he said he wanted home, a doctor discharged him, but he wasn't well, got agitated and angry, so much that I had to call the Police out, as I was fearful.  He was experiencing flashbacks from his previous inpatient stay in Stratheden Hospital where he was unreasonably treated in the locked seclusion room of the old IPCU, February 2012, for which I won an apology from NHS Fife after raising a complaint with the Ombudsman.  So my son Daniel was in a rage due to this and I asked the police to take my son to his brother in Dundee, to see if he could get hospital treatment in Carseview, out of Fife, where he had such a negative experience in 2012: 

However Carseview was full up and it also required the Consultants' agreement for my son Daniel to be treated out of Fife and this did not happen, he was returned to Ravenscraig and Dr McQuitty.  I believe that my son would be better treated in a psychiatric ward out of Fife after his very negative experience in 2012 when he was locked in a dark seclusion room with a broken hand untreated, for hours on end and had to defecate on the floor, then was punished for it.

It is not good for my son's mental wellbeing to be stressed in Ravenscraig Ward and I keep hearing him swearing to me on the phone, and when I visited him last week.  He was very agitated and aggressive.  This is not like him and I am concerned that his treatment in Ravenscraig Ward is making him worse not better.  I cannot agree to my son coming home in such a heightened, agitated state, it's not safe for him to be discharged when so unwell.  And it's not safe for me either. 

I hope that my concerns will be listened to, and addressed,

Yours sincerely, Chrys




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Saturday, 6 March 2021

'The pen is mightier than the sword'

"Who first said 'The pen is mightier than the sword'?"   by Alison Gee, BBC News, 9 January 2015



"The English words "The pen is mightier than the sword" were first written by novelist and playwright Edward Bulwer-Lytton in 1839, in his historical play Cardinal Richelieu.

Richelieu, chief minister to King Louis XIII, discovers a plot to kill him, but as a priest he is unable to take up arms against his enemies.

His page, Francois, points out: But now, at your command are other weapons, my good Lord.

Richelieu agrees: The pen is mightier than the sword... Take away the sword; States can be saved without it!

The saying quickly gained currency, says Susan Ratcliffe, associate editor of the Oxford Quotations Dictionaries. "By the 1840s it was a commonplace."

Today it is used in many languages, mostly translated from the English. The French version is: "La plume est plus forte que l'epee."'


"According to the Cambridge Dictionaries website the saying emphasises that "thinking and writing have more influence on people and events than the use of force or violence"."


"Robert Burton, in The Anatomy of Melancholy, published in the early 17th Century, describes how bitter jests and satire can cause distress - and he suggests that "A blow with a word strikes deeper than a blow with a sword" was already, even in his day, an "old saying".


"... When Napoleon came to power there were dozens of newspapers in France but he suppressed most of them, sanctioning just a handful of publications.

He also realised that the pen, in his own hand could be a weapon, says Broers. "He knew that he could undermine the allies who had defeated him through his memoirs and he did."'

London trips 2015-2017 photo albums - visits to speak out on mental health matters ...

 Here are Flickr photo albums from trips to London for mental health events and visits between 2015 and 2017, including to the Carers UK conference at Canary Wharf [I'd campaigned to raise Scottish travel expenses from £100 to £260], a book launch at St George's [I'd co-written a chapter], a visit to Middlesex University for a Coproduction conference and to Drayton Park Women's Crisis House [when preparing for a PhD researching Safe Houses for Psychosis which didn't transpire].

I didn't get paid to speak although I did get expenses for travel and accommodation on some of the trips, from Carers UK and the Minorities Group.

London 25-27 November 2015


London 4-5 July 2016


London 17-19 July 2016


London by scooter 7 November 2016


London Kyoto Garden 9 November 2016


London Mudchute Farm, Isle of Dogs 10 November 2016


London 6-8 March 2017 MH Nursing book launch St George's


London Chelsea FC Stamford Bridge 7 March 2017




Friday, 26 February 2021

an apology from FSLT HQ & I'm welcome at Glenrothes pool 🏊‍♀️

 I received a letter by Email from Fife Sports & Leisure Trust on 19 February which contained an apology:

"I am sorry to hear that on your visit to Michael Woods Sports and Leisure Centre on 20th November 2020, that staff were not within the wet changing area to advise you of the protocols and direct you towards the swimming pool. The issue that you have brought to light will be investigated and any required actions undertaken as per Fife Sports and Leisure Trust's disciplinary process."

and which confirmed that I am not banned from using the Michael Woods Sports and Leisure Centre, Glenrothes.

20Nov20 Glenrothes Pool


Tuesday, 23 February 2021

mental health in Fife locked down? when will it ever end ...

I don't know, is the answer.  To when it will end for me.

I've been looking for a move out of Fife since 2012 after the human rights abuse of the locked seclusion room in Stratheden Hospital, by Cupar. I tried everything in the early days - Dundee City Council housing list, an exchange, asked family for help with buying a house and we could pay the mortgage - but nothing transpired and I got financially poorer, now on a basic State Pension.  Plus I was busy raising complaints about NHS Fife, Fife Council Social Work Services and Fife Police, then with the Ombudsman which resulted in an apology from the Fife Health Board for "unreasonable treatment" of my son, in September 2014.

We were abandoned by mental health services in Fife after I started raising complaints in February 2012, even although I completed a Carer Assessment form with MHOs from Fife Council Social Work.  And I later found out, in the August 2012, that an Adult Protection Investigation resulting from my complaints, tried to find evidence that I was to blame for psychiatric abuse.  They asked a psychiatrist and a CPN/community psychiatric nurse about my character.

And Greg Flucker Broadcast Journalist mentioned in his Email to me "what an end to lockdown could mean for boosting people's wellbeing?".  For me, getting out of Fife, with my son, to Dundee, in a comparable house to the one we are living in - own front and back doors, own garden - would be like freedom after restraint.  It would mean new beginnings, a better life, access to facilities in the city, to libraries, museums, a range of supermarkets, shops, swimming pools, gyms, the potential to do further study, to look for a craft studio or workshop with my son.    

I'm looking forward to a creatively crafty future getting more into knitting, sewing, making stuff, to writing short stories, books, on a range of topics, self published, including science fiction like my Dad Willie Patterson, scriptwriter for the Daily Express in the 1960's, the adult comic strip Jeff Hawke:

The Ambassadors on Amazon

I'm dependent on the State and can't afford to buy a house in Dundee even although NHS Fife got £4.4m from Scottish Government after I whistleblowed about the locked seclusion room abuses.  It didn't benefit me to speak out.  And these days I hear very little about Fife mental health services so I'm thinking that it must be safer for others not to say anything than risk retaliation for giving negative feedback.  

I read often in The Courier about issues in Carseview Centre, Dundee, and in Murray Royal Hospital, Perth, but I hear nothing about psychiatric hospitals in Fife.  No news is good news?  I don't think so.  It can only be a good thing to hear a range of feedback about mental health services but that's not happening in Fife, and I've retreated from frontline MH activism and campaigning.  I've done my bit to improve things here and just want a move to Dundee.


Sunday, 21 February 2021

Monday, 15 February 2021

Scottish Church leaders call for greater Freedom of Expression protections; Hate Crime Bill

'Church Leaders Urge Withdrawal of Controversial Section of Hate Crime Bill to Allow “Adequate Consideration”: Free Church of Scotland, 12 February 2021

"An unprecedented alliance of Roman Catholic and Evangelical church leaders are urging the Scottish Government to drop part of its proposed Hate Crime and Public Order (Scotland) Bill to allow time for “detailed consideration of crucial provisions.” The Bill, which would potentially criminalise any criticism of some ideologies has been criticised by the Catholic Church, the Free Church of Scotland and the Evangelical Alliance. 

In a letter addressed today (Friday 12 February) to the Cabinet Secretary for Justice Humza Yousaf, the church leaders call for greater protections for freedom of expression and say: 

“We believe that people should be completely free to disagree with our faith in any way, including mocking and ridiculing us. We are convinced that our faith is true and has a sufficient evidential basis to withstand any criticism, we therefore welcome open debate.” 

By contrast, concerns are raised that any disagreement with or criticism of certain beliefs and identities could fall foul of the new law, if passed in its current form.

The letter marks the first time Roman Catholic, Free Church and Evangelical Alliance leaders have jointly petitioned the Scottish Government and sought a meeting with the Cabinet Secretary for Justice.  

Supporting “open and honest debate” the letter ends with a warning:

“The Parliament now has approximately four weeks to complete the passage of the bill. This is extraordinarily tight and risks inadequate and ill-thought through legislation being passed. No workable solutions to issues of freedom of expression have so far been suggested. If no such solutions can be found we hope the Scottish Government will now consider withdrawing the stirring up hatred offences in Part 2 of the bill to allow more detailed consideration and discussion and to ensure freedom of expression provisions, which enshrine free and open debate, are afforded the scrutiny they require.”

The full text of the letter can be read here."



Friday, 12 February 2021

truth, secrets and lies

 A wee blog post about this topic, not going into much detail.

I'm glad to have recently found out a secret which had been hidden from me for over 6 years.  It was a shock to know that I wasn't in the loop and made sense of why at times it felt odd, incongruent and that something wasn't right.  They shouldn't have done it, kept it a secret.  That was a wrong decision.  For all sorts of reasons.  

11Nov14 photo taken in Waverley Station, Edinburgh

"O, what a tangled web we weave. When first we practise to deceive!" Sir Walter Scott, from Marmion: a Tale of Flodden Field


There was another secret which I didn't know about until 18mths later in the summer of 2011 which has links to the later secret and has its roots in psychiatric abuse, discrimination and ignorance.  It was a takeover of sorts and the perpetrators didn't understand the wider context, underestimating the skills, abilities and experience of their adversary.  

It caused a lot of damage and pain.  But that's the nature of psychiatry, retraumatising the traumatised.  New pain for old.  I've said it before and I say it again.  

I'm just glad that the truth is now out in the open.  I had to externalise my pain and hurt, have done that and feel the better of it, looking forward to a more positive future, the ending of lockdown, being creatively crafty, continuing to write, keeping fit, moving to the city of Dundee with my youngest son.

19Aug20 Hilltown, Dundee, with Daniel

1999 with my 3 sons

grandchildren when young

Tuesday, 9 February 2021

Half the City Live by St. Paul & The Broken Bones



Monday, 8 February 2021

focusing on the positive



Woke up thinking of recent and past events, and then singing this wee chorus I learnt after coming to a deeper faith in God and Christ in 1981 at my birthday time, September, 40 years ago, when reading the gospels in my council house upstairs bedroom at Rigside, Lanarkshire.

I've got a lot to be thankful for, not least that I'm in good physical and mental health after nearly a year of lockdowns and threats of coronavirus invasion.  On Saturday I received a letter from NHS Scotland offering a vaccine appointment in Cupar Corn Exchange to protect me from COVID-19, the first dose.  Hopefully my son Daniel will soon receive his letter too.

We are looking forward to a Dundee move in 2021, hoping for a council house similar to the one we have lived in for nearly 23 years at Springfield, Cupar, Fife.  I first put our names down in 2012 with Dundee City Council Housing, completing application forms accompanied by Doctor's letters but we were never offered anything and in 2016 I was dealing with health issues and forgot to renew the application. Since 2018 we have again been asking for help to move, appealing to politicians in Fife and Dundee, also looking at private rented but this came to nothing and wasn't a good idea, moving to less secure accommodation.

I'm glad to have a car now, funding by family in 2019 enabled me to buy a new Corsa, after 3yrs of taking buses into Dundee, my bladder prolapse worsening and then getting a pessary fitted, self managed, making exercise much easier.  After injuring my medial collateral ligament on left knee in May I've now lost weight, taking the stress off my legs, the titanium plate right fibula from March 2005 causing left side strains.  Physio phone call in August after Ninewells A&E diagnosis informed me that knee could take up to a year to heal.  This was useful information.

Buying a sewing machine from Hobbycraft online last year was a good move and enabled me to make many face coverings for us and family, here and in Louisiana.  Here are some photos of these, made mostly with cotton fat quarters or materials by the metre from Hobbycraft in Dundee:

December in The Range, Lochee, Dundee

December Exchange St, Dundee

Creative crafting is very therapeutic in my life experience and I also enjoy sock knitting these days, 4ply Drops Fabel wool and bootleg longer socks:

and on occasion making cushion covers:

New Year 2021 cushions 👇

using unfinished cross-stitch from around 20yrs ago ...

Friday, 22 January 2021

the luck of the draw in 2014, it's a lottery

Tayside winners join £96 million Vanity Fair-style National Lottery line-up by Craig Smith, Courier Fife, 18 November 2019

And in this article are my oldest son's inlaws Mr & Mrs Raymond Storey, who live in Dundee, middle couple in photo:


I only found this news out yesterday by chance online, my son never said.  Mr Storey, originally from Northumbria, won the £1million in November 2014 through Euromillions:


link to news piece


2014 was a very busy year for me doing unwaged activism, campaigning and caring in mental health matters, waiting for the Ombudsman result regarding my case against NHS Fife which I won in September 2014, at my birthday time, and an apology from Fife Health Board.  They received £4.4m as a result of my whistleblowing work. 

link to Scottish Sunday Express article 5Oct14


To be continued ...

Monday, 18 January 2021

"the fags got me"


Beach Ballroom Aberdeen 22July16 [met my future husband there Spring 1971]

Said Emeritus Professor Ian Reid to me in an Email shortly before he died in June 2014.  We had got back in touch after I'd copied him into another Email sent to his former colleagues at Ninewells Hospital working in DAIS/Dundee Advanced Interventions Service which provided NMD/neurosurgery for mental disorder or, as I called it, brain surgery for mental illness.

I had first met Ian at the SEAN/Scottish ECT Accreditation Network conference at Stirling University in October 2011 and thought he was a mental health service user.  He wore a big woolly jumper and was sitting at the lunch table with other folk who I knew through MH matters, and got annoyed with me when I spoke out against ECT, saying how my Mother got many shock treatments against her will at Murray Royal, for no good reason or suchlike.

I didn't know that the woman about my age at the table, taking her soup through a straw, was the poster girl/main spokesperson at the panel later on, FOR ECT.  And I was in the front row when she told the story of her husband calling the CPN/community psychiatric nurse to get her more ECT, as if this was a good thing. I was horrified, my face would have said it all, couldn't hide it.  Also on the panel were Dr Lyons, head of the Mental Welfare Commission at the time, and maybe another 2 folk with Lived Experience.  Can't remember exactly as it wasn't a positive experience, having to sit through stuff which I disagreed strongly with.

I didn't know until after this event that Prof Reid was the "king of ECT" as I called him [blog post I wrote with a play on words], a key proponent of the treatment, even being called as an expert for the programme 'Call the Midwife', to advise, so he told me.  And he was on the BBC giving ECT to a man in Aberdeen where he worked, although I said at the time that if he had given it to an old wifie against her will then they would never have broadcast it.  Would cause an uproar and an outcry.

Then Ian bullied me in an Email one Sunday not long after this SEAN event and had to apologise, inviting me up to Aberdeen to meet his colleagues and a woman who asked for ECT, found it useful.  He met me from the train and gave me a lift in his car to the cafe for lunch, it stank of smoke and everytime he got out of the car he lit up a fag.  I'm not keen on fag smoke, my Mother was a smoker, it helped her counteract the effects of the Depixol antipsychotic injection she was on for life, due to abusive psychiatric treatment in her earlier years.

That was in January 2012 when I first met up with Ian in Aberdeen and he talked about having me speak about mental health recovery to his colleagues and students at a later date, however in the February my son went into Stratheden Hospital and my life changed, I became a whistleblower.  And Ian continued to engage with me by Email, sharing journal articles, stories from his past, we had things in common, both worked in Woolies as teenager, he in Dunfermline, me in Perth.  Ian also said he had read my Dad Willie Patterson's Jeff Hawke stories with his Grandpa, when a wee boy.

I met up with Ian for a second and last time in February 2014, lunch in an Aberdeen cafe, for I thought he lived in the city or nearby, but I found out later, from the funeral notices that he actually lived near Dundee, in Newtyle, Angus.  At our lunch, upstairs in a cafe off Union St, he sucked on an Ecig surrepticiously, and I noticed that he struggled a bit with the stairs, as if he was in pain.  He walked me to the bus stop and as he left I felt a sadness because I couldn't have worked with him on ECT research being so against the treatment.  I'd have tried to influence folk against it, was biased.

And when he told me about his Emeritus title and terminal lung cancer a few weeks before he died, again I felt sad.  I received word of his passing in a text from his wife when I was in St Mary's Monastery, Kinnoull Hill, Perth, at a MH event.  What a great loss, I thought, especially to his teenage daughter, not having her Dad around any more, for I'd seen photos of her with her friends and Ian on his facebook.  I could empathise as I lost my dad in 1969 at 16yrs old when he never came back from London, although I saw him once briefly in 1971 at Belsize Rd to check he was ok, then was at his funeral in 1986 down there, Kensal Green.  

I was aiming to attend Professor Reid's memorial service at the University Chapel in Aberdeen and had bought train tickets in advance but I wasn't well on the day, had flu and couldn't make it.  I was very busy that year attending MH events in London, Manchester, Scotland, it caught up with me, had to rest.  And then in the September 2014 I got word from the Ombudsman that I'd won my case against NHS Fife for "unreasonable treatment" of my son in Stratheden psychiatric Hospital, February 2012:


link to Express article