Monday, 21 May 2018

the coverup

This morning I sent an addendum to the proposal Email, to Fife Health and Social Care Partnership Senior Managers, saying No Gagging Clause:

"If you decide to hire me as an independent MH consultant in Fife then there shall be No gagging clause or coverup. 

link to Express article 5Oct14
I shall continue to speak out about my son's abuse by Nurses in Stratheden IPCU/Ward 4, February 2012, and about the fact that Fife Council Social Work tried to blame me for it in an Adult Protection Investigation Report.  I raised complaints and was targeted because of it.  The staff who abused my son have been protected by NHS Fife and Scottish Government awarded them £4.4million while we got financially poorer."

Yesterday I sent an Email to a friend with the strapline "the coverup".  Here are some excerpts:

"It was during my phone conversation with an NHS Fife senior medical manager that I mentioned the word "coverup" in relation to church ministers who do wrong stuff but aren't held to account by the church leadership, made to reflect on their mistakes and therefore are in danger of perpetuating them."

Rigside Church
"I was thinking particularly of the first Minister we had, after joining Rigside Church in September 1981 after I became a Christian.   ... the man was a former hoover salesman, in his 40's when coming into church ministry, undermined his wife who worked FT at Semi Chem in Lanark, to supplement their income, so he could drive about in a gold Capri, registration UAS (you ass).  

His wife would put herself down, saying that she was "negatively negative" because he told her she was.  She hadn't wanted to work with homeless men in Glasgow for her husband had been keen on a job with Tom Allan but she spoke of not being able to deal with what it might involve eg washing bug ridden bodies etc.  So the Rigside ministry was a second choice, for him."  She was a lovely woman, didn't deserve the treatment she received from her husband, a middle aged man with grey hair, a big ego and BO. 

The Minister within a year began an affair with the church organist who lived next door to the manse with her husband.  On one occasion I visited each one of them in turn to tell them off because of the damage being done to the church and its witness.  I was a leader in children's activities, including summer missions, and their behaviour undermined the work.  But they didn't listen to me.  Eventually they made a show of repentance, however this didn't last long and they were soon meeting up again in lay-bys.  The organist was a bonny woman with a hardworking husband, they lived in a detached house, I could not understand the attraction for the ex-hoover salesman.

Within 3 years the Church of Scotland head office moved the Minister up North to another charge, leaving Rigside to deal with the fallout.  I was pregnant with my third son that year of 1984 and it was very stressful, hearing the Minister justify his sin in the pulpit.  No shame.  

Back to the present and the phone call with the NHS Fife medic who I told this story to and she said that everyone makes mistakes.  Yes but that wasn't the point of the story.  Rather it was the coverup by the Church who should have defrocked the Minister or at the very least had him take a sabbatical to consider his behaviour, made an apology to the local church, helped us recover from the betrayal.  Otherwise the man was likely to have perpetuated the same mistakes in his next charge with his wife believing that she was to blame.  [she ended up with Parkinson's because I phoned her a few years later in Tongue, 1980's, to find out how things were, she described working in the local Post Office and losing feeling in her fingers, not sure how long she survived]

Back to February 2012 when I started to raise complaints by Email to various senior managers in NHS Fife, Fife Council, Scottish Government, Mental Welfare Commission, MSPs, local councillors, meeting with Police Officers in Cupar Police Station, to speak of my concerns about Stratheden IPCU and the treatment of my Son.  His claims of anal rape which were heard by many, including Nurses and my friend, pastoral deacon at Cupar Baptist Church, who shared the visiting.  

Stratheden Hospital blog started up 28July2012

My son had phoned the Police from Ward 4 and arranged a meeting which was cancelled by Consultant Forensic Psychiatrist Bill Dickson who said my son had "no capacity".  Dickson also said to me that patients without capacity didn't require advocacy.  I set him straight about that one, at a meeting in his office on 9Feb12 the first time I met him, and advocated for my son when he asked me to, at clinical meetings in Ward 4/IPCU during Feb12.

Dr Bill Dickson retired at the end of March 2012 then got supply work in
new IPCU Stratheden Hospital
Carseview, Dundee, on top of his pension.  The Senior Charge Nurse of Ward 4/old IPCU in Feb12 took early retirement or was pensioned off after the new IPCU was opened in 13 July 2017, so I was informed by the Clinical Director Dr Reid at the time.  He has also now retired.  Many other Nurse managers based at Stratheden Hospital, who I complained to or engaged with, have retired since February 2012 with their pensions intact, no doubt, maybe even gone on to further paid work.  Whereas I've got financially poorer and my son has been targeted by DWP assessments for his mental illness and unfitness to work due to the abuse by MH Nurses and his Bipolar Disorder Dx, received after the Nurse abuse and Mental Health Tribunal in March 2012.

Life isn't fair.  Professor Matthias Schwannauer, University of Edinburgh, Clinical Psychology department, my PhD Supervisor at the time, said this to me at a meeting with Professor Andy Gumley, in the Dugald Stewart Building, Room 1.01, on 7 February 2017.  He was correct.  It's very unfair that a survivor Mother and unwaged Carer should be impoverished for exposing psychiatric abuse, bullied and blamed, while the NHS Fife staff who failed to keep my son safe are protected by the system.  

My PhD offer, to research Safe haven crisis Houses at the University of Edinburgh was withdrawn 9 May 2017 and I was eventually banished from involvement with the DClinPsy programme at the Mental Health and Wellbeing Unit, Gartnavel, University of Glasgow.  Professor Gumley, who was my academic mentor on the PhD, hasn't spoken to me since July 2017 apart from one brief Email, following the announcement of the publication of my Opinion Piece in the Psychosis Journal:

Link to Opinion Piece in my blog

There's no money to be made in whistleblowing, in speaking out about psychiatric abuse, in standing with your son, advocating at clinical meetings, in raising complaints with NHS Fife and Fife Council Social Work Service.  It resulted in us being abandoned by community MH services after my son was discharged from Stratheden Hospital in April 2012.  I got no support even although completing a Carer Assessment form and asking for Self Directed Support for my son.  The only engagement we had was with psychiatrist Dr David Reid, occasional clinical meetings.  I was left to deal with the flashbacks from the physical, mental and sexual abuse of my son in the locked seclusion room of Ward 4/IPCU Stratheden, February 2012, providing psychological "therapy".  

We share a house, it's not been easy but our financial circumstances means it's more viable to pool our resources so as to buy food, pay the bills, keep a warm, comfortable home and garden.  Can't afford a car now, that's been hard, the number 64 bus by Stratheden IPCU, new and old, a constant reminder of the systematic abuse of my son.  We would both be much worse off living separately.  Anyway, he's my youngest son and I love him, unconditionally.  Nurses justified their abusive treatment of my son by writing in his Notes: "difficult and demanding Mother" and "family history of Schizoaffective Disorder", referring to my diagnosis from 2002.  So, in a sense, my son was abused because I'm his Mother.  How cruel is that?

Stop Blaming Mothers for Mental Illness

I'm just glad to have survived, thus far.

No comments:

Post a Comment

Note: only a member of this blog may post a comment.