I'm a good Mother like my Mother before me, both of us experiencing psychosis due to life trauma, in my case very painful, induced with chemicals, childbirths, existentially at the change of life and following years of campaigning for justice after my youngest son was abused in Stratheden Hospital, Fife, February 2012, for which I got blamed in an Adult Protection Investigation report.
I didn't do paid work for many years as my 3 sons were growing up, preferring to be around when they were toddlers, pre-school, then after school and in the holidays, spending time with them, enjoying their company. We had fun together. I ensured they got piano lessons and other musical tuition (accordion, woodwind instruments, violin) which I missed out on because we lived in a 4th floor flat in Perth as I was growing up.
|me aged about 10, photo taken by my Father Willie Patterson, Perth|
|my 3 boys 1987 on a visit to Perth|
I remember sitting in the front row box at the circus aged about 5 with my Dad and shaking hands with Coco the Clown, and a big birthday party in the September after starting Caledonian Road Primary School, then another one aged 12 when in 1st year at Perth Academy, marking the transition. Fireworks display organised by my Father in the wasteground outside Pomarium Flats, rockets, Catherine wheels, sparklers, in the dark, the skies lit up. He wore cravats, smoked cigars, Capstan and a pipe, had nicotined fingers. My girl friends when I was at the Academy thought my Dad was handsome, I was a bit put out by this, he was just my Dad.
Looking back, I wasn't used to misogny, and was a confident child with a sense of self, trusting in my own judgements, my family home a safe place and refuge from the world. On choosing a husband I looked for someone who would provide for me and my family, a safe house and secure base. I met his family in 1971 and liked his Mother who asked me when I'd be marrying her son, before he said anything! We got on well. She was a gem.
|my Mother-in-law Elizabeth Muirhead, photo taken by me in her front garden 1976|